Small things

Good news! I have a schedule worked out now. I'll be working at the school 3 days a week teaching English, 3 days at Compassion International after school program, 2 to 3 days helping teach English at a few different seminaries, one day of house visits to single moms, and helping out with Sunday school at the church. I must confess, with some hesitation at being judged, that God's been showing me my selfishness, because I'm battling the thoughts of having no time and getting really burnt out (which happens a lot, I'm told). I know I'm here to serve, but I wonder just how much can one person do in a week? Any ways, I do have Mondays off, so on Sundays I'll go to the Extreme building (about an hour away by bus) and spend the night so I can sleep in at least until 8:00. Then I'll hopefully get Spanish lessons and maybe meet with a mentor on Mondays.
Getting up at 5:30 everyday can be really exhausting, especially to a person who generally thinks getting up at 9:30 a.m. on a Saturday is unreasonable and/or unheard of. So with that said, I was extremely tired by about 12:30 yesterday and truly felt like I couldn't make it through the rest of the program. I had no idea what classroom I was to help with (and I now know I was also fighting off being sick). In tears I locked myself in the bathroom at the school praying and trying to pull myself together. Finally I left but once outside no one seemed to be around and I started panicking again. Then out of no where one of the girls in the preschool class beckoned me upstairs, told me to sit down and just watch the kids play while she went to do something and I understood all of it! Small as it may have been, it was an answer to my desperate prayer to be able to get through the rest of the day. And that's how I'm taking things now day by day which is probably a better way to do it any how!